Wednesday, April 25, 2012
What if God says no again?
It has occurred to me over and over through the years that God tends to say no in order to create new opportunities. To be completely honest, I have yet to see the opportunities, and have never really reacted the correct way I knew I was supposed to; I've always acted the way I thought would make the disappointment go away. In the end, there is only a handful of decisions I've made in the last five years that I haven't regretted.
In the last few months, I've found a lot of direction to what I am supposed to do, or, at least what I think I'm supposed to do. After being a shift supervisor for a year now, I couldn't hate my job any more. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do, but I hate my job. I started looking into what it would take for me to do what I've wanted to do since I was a child; studying volcanology. Since I was eight years old, I've been slightly obsessed with volcanoes. No reason why, I just have. So I started looking at schools, majors, and timeframes. There are plenty of schools that offer a geology degree, and there are plenty of opportunities to consider. I bunkered down and did what I do best; I made a plan, and I've been sticking to it.
Then this last week, it hit me; what if God says no again? What if I apply to Fresno State, and once again, they are closed to transfers? That means yet another year added to my plan, another year not doing what I wanted to do, and another year working at a job that offers no rewards, no future, and no respect. What am I going to do??
To be completely honest, I have no idea what I'm going to do. I do, however, know how I'm going to react. I'm going to trust God that he has a better plan that will hopefully come out sooner than later. I'm going to react in the way no one expects me to, because no one has ever seen me react the way I am supposed to.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment