It's New Years Eve. I'm in Las Vegas with some of my favorite people. I'm staying in a castle. I haven't had to set an alarm in four days. I'm a happy person.
But this weekend has been about choices, of course. Do you ever feel like life is like a test? I'm not talking the cosmic/biblical "God's just testing you....you'll get through" test. I'm talking the "make this choice or else" tests. I feel like I'm living this crazy test that determines whether or not you'll find happiness, peace, joy, love, hope, etc. There's never any answers given. You have to make an educated guess, know the answer from years of studying, or just pull an answer out of the sky because you have no freaking idea what it is. But each of these determines whether or not you pass or not. I just want an answer. Or two. wouldn't that make life so much easier? Yes.
I feel like the choices I make aren't the ones you can look back on and find the other answers you're looking for. You know the type. The ones that you answer and then a question completely relates to the previous answer and you know what it is? Yeah, life definitely isn't like that. Answers are dependent on themselves. There is no easy way out. You just have to choose. Over and over and over....and over again.
But the other thing about these choices that in this test is that you can't go back and erase the questions you've already answered. You can't fix a mistake. You can't make a problem go away. If you screwed up something great you had going for you, your done, and thats that.
But how do you figure out what will make you pass or fail? That, apparently, is one of the questions that remains to be answered.
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