Unpredictability

I'm not a person who enjoys unpredictability. I never have, I never will. As a college student six months out of high school, who hated high school and all aspects of high school, I've realized that I miss the innocence of high school. Not to say that high school is innocent. Trust me, no one in high school can be considered "innocent" by any means, but the innocence of responsibility.

I've never been one to say that I like a safe environment. In fact, most everything that I believe goes against a safe environment. But high school is safe. The only responsibility you have is getting to class on time and keeping your grades suitable to satisfy mom and dad. You don't worry about managing work, plus getting your school done, plus doing enough to pay the bills, plus any other responsibilities of this "adult" world.

But at the same time, life is a mysterious adventure. God has created this life of unpredictability so we learn how to trust Him more. This is a life full of mystery, beauty, joy, pain, sorrow. Everything changes. There is a time for everything. We all have a destiny, a craving, a fulfillment. We're called not to live in the safety nets that society builds but in the uncivilized wonderlands that God creates for us. I don't know what tomorrow brings. I don't know where I'll be living or working or who I'll know in a year. But I do know one thing. If I pursue what God has placed on my heart, and follow the path He has placed me on, I don't need to know. I just need to become the woman God has created me to be. He's already shown me that by trusting Him, extraordinary things can happen. So perhaps this is true in all aspects of life. Wait, forget the "perhaps". The only way to find an answer is to find the unpredictable. In fact, unpredictability is the answer. I think that is God were standing beside me right now and I asked Him what my future had in store, His answer would be a shrug of the shoulders and the word "unpredictability".