For those who know me, you know that I've had a very crappy last three months. I'm not going to lie, I've had a lot of trouble believing that God had the best intentions for me, that God really does know best, or that God has been by my side the whole time. I've lost a lot of faith in the last few months. But you know those things that you know, and believe, you just don't feel at the time? That's exactly where I've been since September. I've known that God is 1000% in control, and that He threw my life interruption at me for a reason. But this last week, He totally revealed Himself to me.
So on Thursday, I was watching Prince Caspian. Now, with the exception of "Braveheart" and "We Were Soldiers", I don't cry unless the movies a chick flick. This movie was amazing. For anyone who doesn't know the Chronicles of Narnia stories, the books, and movies, are basically an allegory or parable. The movies portray God as a Lion, Aslan, and this place called Narnia. Anyway, and totally besides the point, if you haven't watched either of these movies, DO IT. They are both amazing. So anyway, there is this part near the end of Prince Caspian where the opposing army, the Talemarines, are fighting the Narnian army and decide to retreat back to the river. As they come out of the trees, this entire massive army just stops short. Standing on the nearby opposite bank, is the youngest sister of the humans who come, Lucy. This maybe ten year old little girl, stops an entire army from advancing. To make it better, she then draws her simple, small dagger from her pocket, with this look on her face like "Come get me." The Talemarines begin crossing the river...and then the most amazing scene takes place. Aslan steps forward to join Lucy.
Now, tell me this is not so freaking amazing!!!! It is such a sign, that God is always, 100% on our side...and by our side. He's always there. Always. He never leaves, he never forsakes, and he never gives up. How cool is that?? As soon as Aslan walked up next to Lucy, I lost it. And seriously, every time I talk about it or tell someone else about it, I lose it, big time. It's just so awesome to think that God, the Lion, comes to our side when we need him the most...against our biggest obstacles...against our biggest fears. Even when we don't believe he is, he is constant. He never moves. Actually, the whole relationship between Aslan and Lucy is so representative of what we should be in Christ. Lucy, all throughout the movie, is wondering why Aslan is not coming to their aid, but she is also the only one who believes he will come through in the end. Right before the river scene, Lucy goes into the woods to call on Aslan and ask for his help. She is chased by a Talemarine, whom Aslan goes after and knocks off his horse, and scares away. Instantly, he goes from being this protective, aggressive, fearful warrior, to being the loving Father that Lucy loves so dearly. WOW! Seriously? I mean, Disney created this? Really? I couldn't believe it. It was amazing. And it was seriously exactly what I needed to feel that God is there. I've had such a hard time believing it, until now.
